scared!

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 14:13:36 GMT

oh god im scared incase my storys shit!

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 19:24:09 GMT

Title: self-harm love
Author:
Pairing: gerard/mikey
Rating: 15 maybe 18
POV: both swiched during
Summary: gerard is cutting himself because he is in love with his brother mikey
Disclaimer: don't own don't sue
Author Note: enjoy, first one and im scared!

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gerard was sat on his bed, he was holding a razor blade and was slightly drunk from the bottle of vodka he had stolen from his mothers room.
he started to think about the day... he thought how the other boys at school hit him and jeered at him because he self-harmed not only that because he was bisexual, it didn't evan bear thinking about what would happen to him if they ever found out about him loving his own brother...
"why do i have to be the weird one"? he murmered "why do i have to be in love with my brother"?
he put the blade to his arm and pulled it along, he watched as a small amount of blood rushed to the surface and then faded away.
he then thought of the time when mikey walked in on him masturbating in the bathroom, moaning mikeys name over and over again. Mikey just stood and blinked those beautiful hazel eyes behind his little emo glasses, he went bright red and apologised and backed out of the small bathroom.
gerard nearly fainted with embarrassment, he never spoke nevermind looked at mikey again or thats what he thought would happen, but later on that night he heard his door open slowly so a beam of light from the hall hit his bedroom and bounced off gerards mirror, then it slowly faded as mikey shut the door, he heard mikeys little feet pad across the room, lift up Gerards duvet and slide in next to him.
he heard mikey say "listen gerard, was it me you were umm.. jerking off over earlier"? gerard peered at him through his own hazel eyes, he said "what if it was"?
mikey continued "oh.. well i just uh.. thought it may have been a different makey"... his voice trailed off with the hurt and anguished look on gerards face
at thet mikey sliped out of his brothers bed and padded back across his bedroom floor to the door, opened it and went through it back to his own room, there he opened the door and went into his own room, which was painted blue with black curtains always shut up at the window he then clambered into bed and thought about his visit to gerards room...
he whispered to himself im not the only one whos wants his brother, he thought about lots of things that night he thought how much he loved his brother, he thought about him when he was jerking off also moaning sofly "gerard, fuck, oh fuck"

<*a href="part one"*>part one.<*/a*>

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scared!